I am absolutely obsessed with wanting to know what is going to happen to me. I would like to spend a day in the life of me, five years from now, I’d like to know that I’m going to be okay.
I am also too interested in horoscopes, fate, karma and anything to do with being written in the stars. While it pains me to rely on these things, it’s also a huge relief when something terrible happens to me and I can find a light in promising myself something.
I have already written out my life, and if what I want to happen doesn’t happen, I’m going to be incredibly ruined. But if life does turned out as planned, how magnificent would that be!
That was an example, my blood ran cold at the thought of life going to shit, so I looked at the more positive spin to come back to normality.
I can’t sleep at night, making myself sick over these thoughts. I’m not sure why I’m writing them down either, maybe one of you knows of a genie that grants three wishes.. maybe I just need someone to tell me this is normal